Hello Dear Friends/Friends I haven’t met yet/People who will read this and instantly hate me:
As I was doing my morning chat with my best friend since Kindergarten and simultaneously cleaning out my closet, I had a mini revelation. I have a lot of those while talking to my Dawn friend, who knows me through and through and isn’t afraid to call BullSh*t on me. And the same goes for me with her. We both know how much we love each other, and neither of us is going anywhere.
Cue the Wind beneath my wings song right here.
We were talking about my blogging…or rather lack there of. I mean, what’s going on? My kids are back in school….it’s me, the dog and dust bunnies as far as the eye can see. Why less blogging?
I’ve come to it, and I’ll tell you, and then you can get out your voodoo dolls that have blonde hair and freckles on the nose and stick sharp pins in my eyes and feet to your heart’s content.
I am reluctant to even step foot on WordPress to write a post, because I don’t have time to make it to all my blogging friend’s lovely posts. The tried and true friends that either leave kind comments, or LIKE my post, or both. And I feel like if I don’t have time to be kind to them, how can I feel ok about posting?
And so I haven’t been.
Not that I don’t have ideas brewing….like the nasty horrible awful show I found myself watching last night about Not So–Little Honey Redneck Queen…or something like that…or my thoughts on politics…(It’s not exactly the kind of post you might imagine, as it involves energy and our future president committing to yoga at least 3 times a week)…or yada yada yada….I could go on.
I seriously don’t know how to do this. I didn’t expect blogging to be a community, to find friends that I wish I could do a beam me up Scotty trick to get to them and hug their real bodies and look at their real faces when they smile. I don’t want to let any of them down, but I’m finding myself writing LESS…and supposedly I started blogging, to get better at writing.
I need to work!
Which means, I need to write. AND…read other people’s writing, and take notes. All of which I am willing to do, but the UGLY truth is, I just don’t always have time to do it all.
I know a blogger on WordPress, and I don’t follow her anymore, but she was getting tons of likes. I noticed that on all sorts of blogs I would visit, she had left her calling card. I figured it out. She was BUYING votes. Kinda like Marsha Brady did that one time when she was running for student council, except she paid her voters in Oatmeal Raisen cookies.
How sad. Either she spent 80 hours on WordPress enjoying reading and liking 78 blogs a day, or she was doing it as an end to a means. I’ve never approached blogging that way, and I don’t want to start. And I am really hoping other people feel that same way, because I may not be able to make it to all my blogging friends every time I post. Which means if other people don’t get to every one of my posts, I totally understand. I don’t want people to feel obligated to pop over to my blog because I LIKED something of theirs. It’s not tit for tat, or at least it shouldn’t be.
If anyone has some words of wisdom here, I would really appreciate it. I wish I had 2 hours a day to spend on the computer…but with my crazy life, I’m lucky to find time to actually cook something for my children other than fruit loops. Blogging isn’t anything like I thought it would be, and I don’t want to get out of it…but I’m just not sure if I have time for it. If you have other thoughts, set me straight. I may go in a corner and cry, but I’ll eventually be ok.